Risks - Thorough Planning! Pressure from my father and others things

I am not sure why it is, but I hate taking risks. I have to think things through thoroughly before I will ever try anything new. Some times ‘thinking things through’ takes longer times than others. I have to weigh my options. See what the results and consequences will be before ever being decisive.

Currently I work in nursing. I hate it. It has its benefits, such as helping people, tons of sadaqah etc. However, it is stressful. I see way to much death, and especially to much violent death. Example: I recently saw an individual explode - and I mean it - from cancer. When they passed it was like popping a pimple of ooz and gore. Miserably frightening. I’ve gotten great spiritual advice before from patients. At the same time, I have to put up with wacko pentecostals “witnessing” to my “unsaved” soul. At times I would like to slap them around, maybe even worse - though I will not reveal the “Real” thoughts lol.

Anyhow, my father, for years now has wanted me to join his taxi company and take part in his business. I do see potential profit, as well as more freedom on the job. Plus, it works around my college schedule perfectly. However, the risks are enormous - particularly financially. There are simply to many “what ifs”. My father constantly tells me “trust in Allah ”, and maybe he is right, my trust is not enough. But I still have to tie my camel while having trust. I want to, because I know how the business works, but at the same time, I know that gas prices are rising, and thus cabs will be used less. When I forwarded this worry to my father he simply brushed it off saying ‘rizq will come’. Maybe my trust is not enough, but for now I know there is a solidified job in nursing, whereas in the cab business not necessarily. I just want to finish my degree and get it all over with. Move on, study more, and start my own business while living in a yurt on my own land and growing my own food - while having solar panels for energy lol. Of course, I want Jannah too!

So I ask Allah to guide me to what is best.